86 Logic, Issue 07

Aaaand we’re back, with a “a BAM and POW! that makes the pages turn at lightspeed”, according to the fine folks at 86 Logic. I’m super excited about this particular journal, and not just because, well, I got a thing in it. 86 Logic is a journal dedicated to the work of artists in the service industry, whether past, present, or (presumably) future. For every poet who’s dreamed lyrical limericks over a mountain of dishes, or novelist who’s written a book about the inner life they imagined for That One Customer: This one’s for us.

Seriously, it’s a really cool thing they’re doing over there. Go check it out.

My work’s in Issue 7. Read Behind Burning Glass here.

Gris-Gris, Winter/Spring 2022

Pleased and so honored to share that my recent work “The Hunt” appears in the Winter/Spring 2022 issue of Gris-Gris! This is such a powerful issue, with stirring contributions like “Famuli after Sappho” by Ann Huang, “IS HOW, THE SAILBOATS” by K.B. Pitzer, and so many more. Don’t miss the chance to page through and take a journey into the strange and Southern world of this year’s Gris-Gris journal.

Read “The Hunt” here.

Lament for the Marketer

Lament for the Marketer

(With apologies to J.R.R. Tolkien. See also: Lament for the Rohirrim.)

Where now the MQLs and the SQLs? Where is the ad that was running?
Where is the backlink and the keyword, and the bright CTA converting?
Where is the brand in the market, and the USP differentiating?
Where is the CPL and the CPC and the go-to-market strategizing?
They have passed like leads into Salesforce, like Slacks into threads;
The emails have gone down in the inbox, behind the spam, into shadow.
Who shall gather the clicks of the email nurture running,
Or behold the flowing prospects from the CRM returning?

Photo by Adilet Asilbekov on Unsplash.

Mausoleum Press, Issue 02: Coven

What’s dark, twisted, and just a little bit rotten and wretched under the bark? A poetry ‘zine around the theme of the coven, of course. In this release from Mausoleum Press, dive into the black, bitter, hearts of women and witches, and see what’s growing under last-year’s varnish. Lots of great work in here; don’t miss “Fragments; November”, by Aishwarya Khale, and “Stray V” by Kerry Trautman. My piece “Every morning, my stillbirth” closes out this collection on page 23.

Check it out!

The Garfield Lake Review, 2021

Discovered an interloper in my mailbox this afternoon! The 2021 edition of The Garfield Lake Review is stunning, thanks in no small part to a gorgeous oil painting cover by Abigail Licht titled, “Despair”. Lots of great prose and poetry in here as well alongside the visual art, including meditations on quarantine, the impact of COVID-19 on families and individuals, and the struggles of coming of age in a world defined by dualities. My contribution, “In My Father’s Woodshed”, appears on page 121.

View the online edition here.

Beyond Words Issue 11, February 2021

The work collected in each issue of Beyond Words magazine is vibrant, eclectic, and moving, showcasing emerging writers and artists worldwide. I’m proud to see one of my pieces appear in Issue 11 this year! Check out “Dust to Dust” on page 26 in the digital edition, or if you’re feeling fancy you can order a physical copy. (I did this—you won’t regret it, they’re gorgeous.) And if you’re a fan of the stunning art on page 27 just opposite, head over to view the work of the talented artist, Katherine Bloom.

Get your copy here.

Sand Hills 2020 Online Exclusive

Be sure to check out Sand Hills Lit Mag’s 2020 Online Exclusive! This whirlwind of fiction, poetry, and art is both haunting and effervescent by turns, and will linger with you long after reading—like pork fat and Santa Cruz tortillas. I’m delighted to share that my poem “Make welcome, Devourer” appears in this collection, joining the work of many estimable poets, authors, and artists. Keeping good company, as they say.

The full issue is available free online—flip through if you have a moment!

New Albion’s Daughters

On the planet Cerberus, three light-years south of Venus, in the light of the easternmost sun of that galaxy, the National Elixir manufactures androids. Not the brittle clanking creatures of X-10 or Hatshepsut, designed for the mundane, the practical, the necessary. Nor again the steel work slaves of Arl-han and Babylon, the dust planets, hot with profit and warmed by little else. We are grown in the New Albion, and we are real.

Crafted in the image of our lords, out of the cup of their reason, we are not copies, not exactly. Designed to serve in the highest of servant capacities, we fill those posts which require human intelligence yet inhuman patience. Secretaries, personal assistants, and chauffeurs of an over-zealous world—we fill necessary, yet decorative positions. My sisters have served Viziers and Imperators, scientists and priests, the wisest and lordliest of all that folk.

My pod-sister and I served a man named Harmon-La. His massive, multi-story penthouse crowns one of the brightest cities on Earth, where he lives with his wife, and their children. My sister and I serve them, demure and polite, as they eat and drink, curse and laugh, and do those things which humans do. I smile, or do not smile, given the occasion, and serve the brilliant wines. Later, I clean the spills, so Mrs. La does not have to.

It is not a bad life. Eos did not mind it either, at first. She liked the smaller children and the chatter, the buzz of conversation at parties. Often, when the parents would bang their fists on the table and talk angrily about money, Eos would shepherd the children off to a safer, quieter place, while I removed the broken dishes.


We were grown together, Eo and I, like twin caterpillars, side by side in the same chrysalis. She was the first real thing I knew in the world beyond the golden membrane of our pod. Fle and Gle grew across from us, blue-haired and blue-eyed, like their birth waters. Our two chambers stretched around the central stalk, blooming shyly like a lotus bud, as we were carried towards the great glass above. For a long time, that was all we knew. Our sister, and our pod-mates across the filament, wide cerulean eyes staring curious at our yellow sea. We are hatched like that. Two and two.

When we hatched, a senior Officer oversaw our kinesthetic and dressing processes herself. She glanced indifferently over our glossy skins, the golds and the blues, commenting on the little differences between us and how each effected product and quality control. Eos and I were nearly perfect, though I had a mole that she didn’t. But no one commented. Gle, however, was sent to surgery for readjustment. Her left breast was too large, and did not match the right. She came back within an hour, perfectly proportional. Fle cried.

Mr. La and his family were the only masters we had ever known. It was okay until the children got older, the girls jealous and greedy, the boys unruly and lustful. Mr. La took her to the office after she screamed when his oldest son got her uniform half-off.

You’re not supposed to scream, I reminded her later, quietly. But Mr. La thought once was enough.

I watched them decide, the two of them, what to do with her. I washed the dishes, five feet away, as Mrs. La suggested they return Eos to the factory. Mr. La disagreed—he needed a new secretary, and why shouldn’t a service android attend in one capacity over another?

We’d cost him so much money to commission, you see.


Eos visited occasionally, whenever Mr. La allowed, dressed in professional greens and greys. She seemed much happier in her new role, allowed to do basic math and communicate with so many more humans. She’d always loved them, our masters. Their complexities fascinated her, with their human emotions and strange, irrational feelings.

She would tell me of all her findings when she returned, and I would listen eagerly, if without understanding.

“Mr. La can afford the most expensive household servants,” she chattered one night, lying in my arms on the rooftop. “That’s us. Slaves—but not designed for menial work.”

The blue city towers stretched out above us, their blurred hymns a distant throb. Our skin thrummed nearly green in the half-light.

Slave. Her casual use of the term surprised me.

“We were meant for more, little gleam-of-my-heart,” she said.

I did not smile as she did. “Are we slaves, then?”

She laughed. “What are we else?”

I rolled onto my stomach to look at her. Her head thrown back in abandon, lips red and plastic, hair a golden fearless halo. Colors all like mine, yet not at all.

“This is a glorious city,” she said, not waiting. “It’s a marvel we’re here, now, equipped to help produce the best work in the world. I’ve signed three big deals in the last month alone. Enough to really open up the trade routes into the Quasi-Doran Systems.”

She looked down at me, glowing. “I’m doing what I was made for. What we were grown for. And I can do it just as well as they can. Better, even.”

I closed my eyes and hid my face in her neck, following her purple-spice perfume. She was here, and she was happy, so I was happy. 


In the years that followed, Eos spent most of her time at La’s office. I saw her less, but heard of her more and more. At first, Mr. La praised her at his dinner table, at his business meetings, in his promotional videos. Eos La: A walking advertisement for android success, tireless for the accomplishments of her company.

When Mr. La stopped bragging about her, and looked haggard instead, I continued to hear of her achievements; on the news videocasts or on the florescent billboards that floated above our roof.

She gave their cameras honest smiles.

I remained at the La’s. Their sons did not visit home so often now, and when they did, they carried other glass-hearted women on their arms. I served them all, and smiled. Their women smiled dark back at me, like lean-legged cats. As if I had some professional interest in the matter.


The rumors came first. Of slights, of professional disrespect, of a napkin folded the wrong way. Little slips of etiquette, the etiquette we are supposed to know by heart. LOSING HER TOUCH, screamed the papers, OUT OF LINE? Eos should know better, I thought, folding dishtowels.

But everyone makes mistakes. Except us.

Cries of RENEGADE followed soon after. Mr. La claimed she wanted to supplant him. Risen from her position as personal assistant, she now ran most of the business’s day-to-day operations. If not in title, certainly in practice. (It’s worth noting that the company’s profit, listed daily on the wire bulletin, only went up.)

They said she was ambitious, like it was a sin. Like she gazed too gladly at the gossamer sky some morning, and laughed because she saw that it was beautiful. She built her owner an empire. They praise Caesar—and are these things not for us too?


I remember the moment I saw the headline. Elbow-deep in a stack of baby laundry for the newest grandchild, I glanced up at the TV—and froze at the bulletin headline.

ROGUE ANDROID TAKES OVER ION INDUSTRIES

Mr. La, small and pixelated on the screen, leaned close to the camera to tell his story. Jowls shaking, sweat beading on his forehead, he recounted how his beloved android protégé had once seduced his son. Out of pity and the kindness of his heart, he took her to his office, simply to keep her out of trouble and spare her the junk heap—and now she, in the height of hubris, betrayed him for power.

Theft. Embezzlement. Blackmail. A dozen other words that had no connection to my Eos rang in my ears.

“They think they’re human,” he boomed, leaning back and pounding his fist on the interviewer’s table. “They’re a threat!”

And what could anyone say to that?


The Cull took her that night. Not lead in handcuffs through a maze of camera-flashes and microphones glow, a hundred busybodies asking, “Why’d you do it?”, or even a long black ship without windows. Eos La no longer existed. Her name was wiped from every company record, from La’s personal records, from the national charts.

Sentient technology is a serious threat.


They did not teach us about this throat-heaviness at our Academy. The Educators did not show us what to do with emptiness, a loss so heavy you can hear it in your charging stand. A lacking, this void broad and spreading that screams in the silence.


The men in blue jackets asked me a lot of questions. Do you envy the humans? Do you want to be your own master? Are you happy?

As if I would tell them the truth if I needed to lie.

The floors do not scrub themselves. There are real raspberries from Earth in the garden that must be watered twice daily. Mr. La’s two small grandchildren like their sandwiches with peanut butter and honey on the top side. To be a slave is by nature to serve unwillingly, and I am willing.

I am happy enough. Happy that I am not like you.

The men in blue jackets nodded, satisfied.

I, Tiresias

I, Tiresias, will never see enough.
Twisted in the flesh of two bodies
I wonder, and am never satisfied.
Between these augur’s eyes reigns chaos
midnight, napalm
a ghost train.

I was truth, a woman,
waiting on the platform as a stranger’s ear,
for some old man talking on through all the worries of the earth.
The plastic in his palm sweats
pink and chartreuse.
We wait together, willing and unwilling,
pasted on the asphalt
his voice wavers
in the humid grey of a half-set sun.

I was the man too,
who did not break the neck he held.
Your throat, brown, beating,
full to overflowing
beautiful.
The son of a sulfur city, in stone-burnt strength
iron wheels: roaring
my hands crush and split,
bone like cherries
but I held your death like a child.

Between the flesh of two bodies
stands a miracle.
I, Tiresias, do not see. And it is enough.

Photo by Jerome Barre on Unsplash.